♫ stromae ; papaoutai
in millions of ways and
I have loved you in each Haiku (via cavum)
to be alone,
and I want
to not let me be
alone. (via jackiebetty)
I am stronger than I make myself to be and just as ambitious. In solitude I have learned things about myself that I appreciate learning now than further down the road.
I am glad i’m alone, partly because I wouldn’t be able to appreciate a good guy if they dropped him on my lap. As I look to my friend for advice on school, thoughts can’t help pass my head of how undeserving I am of someone like him. Not because I don’t think I deserve the best or someone who has goals or ambitious because to be frank thats mainly what I look for. But in the sense that I feel sometimes they deserve better. If I were to find a guy as ambitous as I envision I feel as if I would lack in comparision.
And caring about someone like that would only leave me to wanting them to find someone better than me.Somebody who won’t have to deal with so many personal or health issues as I do. I would want the best for them. And currently I do not consider myself the “best”. I still have so much learn, I am my own worst critic and the standards I set for myself only allow me to see how much I have yet to learn and accomplish.
School has me stressed. In the way where it has not been going as planned. But i’m pushing through. A change of plans is in order.